It has a name.

 Sunday was a "quiet" day. Wes left that morning to go see the kids in Vernon and Kenzi and I hung out. She's super excited to play Minecraft and I actually had to drag her outside to sit on the patio with me. We had a movie night and we really felt God's peace that evening, so thanks to everyone praying for that. 

Yesterday was hard. We had a meeting with the doctors. Her mass is called a ewing sarcoma, which is a type of bone cancer. The plan is to start chemo this Friday. Until then, they will be doing a lot of baseline tests. Yesterday she had a kidney function test, today is a bone marrow biopsy, which she will be put to sleep for and tomorrow is the dreaded PET scan to see if it has spread anywhere else in the body. Please pray that it has stayed in the chest cavity. Thursday will be a long meeting where they will lay out the "roadmap" of our treatment plan. They say to expect it to take the next year. 

To be honest, it's too much to take. I don't know how we'll make it through today, let alone the whole course of this treatment. Please pray for strength and God's peace for all of us. 


Comments

  1. Malory20 April 2021 at 08:08

    Praying for you constantly my sweet friend. This is all too much, which is what will force you into the arms of the Lord and HE will walk with you and carry when through. You are an amazing, strong, able mama and God knows what he is doing. He has chosen you to be the best mom for Kenzi and all your other sweet babies. I know you can do this!! Love you all so much!

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  2. Christy20 April 2021 at 08:10

    Prayers for Peace ... for not only containment- but even more! (Shrink it down Lord!) This is NOT fair... But God is on the throne <3 covering you in prayers.... we are going after this thing. <3

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  3. Heidi20 April 2021 at 09:07

    Praying for your family, Monica! Praying for God’s nearness as you travel this road with Kenzie.
    Ron and Heidi Thalen

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  4. Burundi Trip 0720 April 2021 at 09:10

    Oh man... praying. Praying that this mass shrinks and that Our Lord Jesus would carry you daily through every step.

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  5. anna and chelsea20 April 2021 at 09:38

    We will be praying for your family, Monica. <3

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  6. Unknown20 April 2021 at 09:55

    Praying for you even though you don't know me

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    1. Dana22 April 2021 at 08:04

      Me too! (Friend of Cathy)...crying out to the Lord for you throughout the night (baby getting teeth so up extra!). We almost lost our 4 year old last year, can’t even fathom all you’re walking through!!! Wept when I read your story! Trusting for every miracle for your sweet Kenzie!!! Praising with you this was found so soon, and she’s doing so well!! Truly He is Good, even in the midst of the storm!!!

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  7. Lorene Raap20 April 2021 at 10:04

    Our thoughts and prayers are with you all. May the Lord give you much strength during the long road a head. Hugs!!

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  8. Ally Vanderleest20 April 2021 at 10:41

    I have so much admiration for you to be able to see God's peace and His love in those quiet moments. That is so special, and holding on to Him is what is going to get you through. ❤
    Ally

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  9. Emily de Boer20 April 2021 at 11:28

    Wes & Monica, Kenzie and family. Hearing this news, even though I don't even know Kenzie, just broke my ❤️. Wow, from one day to the next things can change so quickly. God's got you written on the palm of His hand, He is not far - even though through trials it can seem that way. Know that many are lifting her in prayer -that it may not have spread, and to strengthen you as parents through these hard days. We'll thinking of you 💕

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  10. Cheryl Irwin20 April 2021 at 16:13

    Prayers for this whole thing. This is so tough.

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  11. Unknown20 April 2021 at 16:53

    Thinking of you constantly. My heart aches for you and Kenzie. Your faith and love will get you through this.

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    1. Unknown20 April 2021 at 16:54

      Sorry, this is Laura at Interior HomeCare.

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  12. Unknown21 April 2021 at 21:34

    Prayers from Barrhead, Gpd knows your pain, I pray for his peace and healing to surround your family. God Bless, Sarah.

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  13. Frances Vegt22 April 2021 at 08:43

    Hello Monica and Wes,
    Sincerely sorry for all your heart ache. Please say hello to Kenzi.
    We found out through the EHCC prayer team.
    We are praying for you all.

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  14. Cathy1 June 2021 at 16:07

    Reading this back and I am overjoyed that you were able to get through this day and that the scan showed it was contained... 💕 In the midst of trials it is so hard to see past a minute of the pain your going through. I am so thankful we get to see the past and look how God hears and answers our prayers 💕

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  15. Rev Ray16 July 2021 at 10:45

    Kenzie;
    Please know that I regular talks with your Grandpa Ben about what's going on in your life'
    and we are continuing to believe that the Lord is going to make you better. Someimes when we don't know what to say, the Lord knows.
    Ray and Sharon Parker

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